I have so much pain in my heart…. So much pain and tears… If you could just see what you have done to me..to us…. All in the name of worshiping Krsna…. Well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! Cause that’s all I think about is just ENDING my misarable life…. Everyday I have to find a reason why I should stay. I have nothing but you and all your
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Readers should be informed that this young lady has already apologized for her strong language against Sri Krsna and Srila Prabhupada (read comments: “Iskcon files for bankruptcy” 11/2/02). [also at the end of this article] She is a victim of ISKCON’s paedophilia protection racket, and should be given our full support.
Had ISKCON made as much noise about the monsters who raped children as they do about plans to protect assets, their concerns would have been self evident.
As it is (even though management has admitted awareness of the crimes), there has never been a single case where ISKCON has prosecuted a predator. Not in the past, nor at this present time. To the contrary, they have given protection, even given office to known offenders.
ISKCON will find very little sympathy (if any) in the public eye. This is the single most concentrated case of child-abuse in the history of man. To believe that material assets will be spotlighted, is just another ISKCON illusion. ISKCON’s accumulation through expansion program may get some air, and its techniques of psychollogical slavery may be exposed. Other than that, the rape and abuse of its own children will take center stage. (SGd)
The pain you teachers and gbc put me threw……the isolations, segregating me from my parents and family……all the times i was molested and then finaly raped YOU the devotees and your PHILOSOPHY said it was my fault my karma….at the age of 8 or nine my gurukula teacher told me to thank krsna that this man violated me now and not later, that i was paying for my karma, i must have done the same in my past life to a child and now i must accept what happened as krsnas mercy, tell that to my badly swollen 9 year old hairless vagina! another time at 10 it was my fault cause to many bramacharies had crushes and any prabhupada said woman are the fire and men are the butter…..beleive me there were many molestations and tons of excusses and no ONE PROTECTED ME! NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!
how many of our molesters got found out and just moved around to another temple by the GBC to avoid prosecution….HOW many GBC’s are molesters them selves!
my nightmares and daymares is all i have now…..you people copletely PHUCKED ME! i worshiped the ground my teachers and elders WALKED on and all i got was hit called a prostitute all the time, for like not covering my head or looking at the bramacharis as they danced all around the temple like horny bulls!…..I cant beleive the things you people made me do……drinking foot juice from bavananda another molester! or when i spilled my food i had to eat it off the floor and my juice or milk to….cause its prasadam, you people treated me like shit and cant even do right by me.
you’v done some evil and just plain TERORizing things to me and to my godbrothers and sisters. I watched, i witnessed all the abuses……no exgeration here Anutuma. You are the spokesperson for a bunch of child molesters and control FREAKS.
i have so much pain in my heart….so much pain and tears..
if you could just see what you have done to me..to us….all in the name of worshiping krsna….well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! cause thats all i think about is just ENDING my misarable life…. everyday i have to find a reason why i should stay. i have nothing but you and all your tortures to keep me crazy….
i sit here remembering all that anutama has said, all that ISCKON has done to me. i just want to die.
why did you do this to me.
why?
gurukula vetern.
Thank you for your words… beleive it or not i dont mean at all to be offensive to KRSNA or SRILA PRABHUPADA, but all that I was taught through my abuses was out of this Devotion for Them.
When they punished us or locked me in the dirty kitchen/closets it was Prabhupad’s tape they played behind the door all day till they saw fit to let me out…. Sometimes the girls would slip chapatis under the door for me….
When I tell you that I can not even hear/see or smell anything devotional because I become physicly ill, like nasua, cold sweats and crying lots of crying….
Sri Krsna AND Srila Prabhupad has been CRAMED down my throught and now what ever beauty you all seem to see, i just cant see it…. To much pain….
Wether i was misinformed about the true essence of Vaisnava life or not, I am ruined for life by it….. I am A Survivor no doubt……. and there are many of us out there.
So though I mean not affend you there is the other side that is just so angry. At the MisUse of your gods name and of his supposed pure devotees….and the need to sound respectful towards them now….is so hard for me…..confusing…..imposible….
I am a product of all the glorious bull….. If there is a Krsna out there then He knows who I am….. where my heart is and where I came out of…… and I think He is much more merciful then we all think and He would understand my anger even if misguided threw teachings and abuse……
I dont know anymore who is up there but I know His love was not supposed to be like this…. From my Sad heart to yours I mean no offence…. I just need so badly to be HEARD for things to change and for JUSTICE…..
Thank you for everyones concern, it’s almost surprising…. because I just have read so many negative things writen about us and it comforting to know NOT everyone is blind, that there is compasion among some of the devotees…. Unlike how i was raised. i am just in so much pain and doing all I can to make sence of everything.
Of course there is no sense in it, it was a crazy mans life.
I just want Justice…… now in this lifetime.
Gurukul Vetren
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